Tell me your toxic trait without realizing it’s a toxic trait? Mine is the need to control (covers eyes). I know, but before becoming judgmental hear me out. Have you ever tried to control the outcome of a situation or experience in your life; for example, job promotion or relationship outcome (romantic or family), etc.? If you have, chances are you haven’t noticed that this is a level of control. Don’t get me wrong it’s nothing wrong with having control of your life, happiness, and accomplishments. Control becomes unhealthy when you try to control how the outcome will turn out. Instead, try flowing with the way of life. What this means is being open to the possibilities life has to off no matter if the outcome isn’t what you intense for it to be but anchored in faith to understand that the moment you release control, you attract instead of chasing. This year has taught me so much patience, love, compassion, awareness, and transparency that anything not in alignment with these things serves me no purpose. When things are not in alignment with your frequency it doesn’t make the person/thing wrong in morals or value, it just means it isn’t within your vibration. Throughout the year everyone grows and experiences life on life terms this is completely normal. It is okay to grow closer to things that fulfill you and grow apart from things that do not. Sometimes when you try to balance holding onto old behaviors while learning new ones to benefit you, you stagnate your true growth because you’re in constant battle with who you were vs who you want to become. I look at things that no longer serve me purpose as lessons or areas of opportunity to improve. Why? Because there will come a day where you think you’ve grown or elevated in an area and will be challenged or tested to see if you’ve grown based on how you choose to respond. That’s why with lessons and life, you want to look at it as a continuous cycle, meaning no matter how much you elevate as a person be willing to grow in all your relationships to become a better person for you/others, or to help someone become a better person. Sometimes our purpose is much deeper than we might be able to see with our eyesight. In some cases, it may seem unfortunate or difficult at times to have to make a sacrifice for the betterment of others. You may be hurt at the crossfire but sometimes it isn’t always about you but others. This year above all taught me humility and that is to not think less of myself but to think of myself less.
